This week culminated in a pure crisis of motivation yesterday morning when, around 7:00, I suddenly decided I just wasn’t going to work out. I just couldn’t.
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This came hot on the heels of Wednesday night’s slump (Oh, I’m so tired — I can’t do more than 20 minutes of cardio…) and certainly has psychological and [...]
My ex-boyfriend has been indispensable in counteracting my blindness throughout this process. Although I’ve lost 60 pounds — and although I’m aware that 60 pounds must come from somewhere! — it’s been hard for me to accept that I am making any visible progress toward health. As I mentioned before, all of my same rolls [...]
No one wants to talk about it, but I think that many people look at fat women differently when they have a boyfriend or husband than when they are single.
Maybe that’s unfair (gross generalization, anyone?) but since becoming involved with my first boyfriend 2 years ago, at the age of 31, I have noticed a [...]
At his request, I’ll be bringing my boyfriend home to meet my family this Christmas. I was surprised when he brought it up; on TV, the boyfriends always dread meeting the family and do so grudgingly. Also, on TV, there is a canned laughter track when the boyfriend disagrees with pop on politics and mom [...]
Dad is the one with diabetes. He was diagnosed about 10 years ago, and has since been promoted from mild sensitizing drugs to multiple insulin shots daily. He’s maybe 30-40 pounds overweight on his worst days.
BUT.
In his natural environment, my Dad does okay with eating well. He really likes vegetables (!!!) and so generally he’ll [...]
You could have knocked me over with a feather last night when my dad announced that he and my mom have started on the Weight Watchers program. Mom talks a lot about needing to lose weight, but I have only known her to do something about it maybe 2 times in my entire life. She [...]
The unheralded arrival of my period this week, a full 8 days late, and the coinciding drop of 3+ pounds from my daily weight, have reminded me of some questions and thoughts that I’ve had for a long time regarding weight loss and gender.
I mean, I find it kind of amazing that, for 10 (or [...]
My parents are in Orlando this week. Dad is busy with business meetings and presentations, but Mom wanted to use up some vacation time, so she convinced my Aunt to tag along “for some fun.”
There’s a lot to do in Orlando, I hear. I’ve never been there, but without even calling on my higher mental [...]
I guess, truth be told, I had to get a boyfriend before I could lose weight. It wasn’t that I needed someone to look over my shoulder or police me. It wasn’t that I needed a portable cheerleader to say “Good job, honey” at every turn. I definitely didn’t need another excuse to lose weight, [...]
Starting weight1: 335.8
Last week: 335.8
This week: 324.2
Change this week: -11.6
Overall change: -11.6
Woah.
Okay, well, with just one week of watching, journaling, and counting what I ate I lost almost every single pound that I put on over the holidays. Most people would be jumping up and down in ecstatic joy at double-digit weight loss in a [...]