Oh, bullets
I forgot all about bullets! I love bullets so much. Welcome to my bullets. I gained 25 pounds in the month leading up to visiting my parents’ house. This is no small feat, and was accomplished almost entirely by eating for comfort rather than eating for nutrition. I bring this up because in the lead-up to taking my license exam on Monday, it’s become really important for me to nourish my body correctly. I know it’s my brain that will be doing most of the work, but I worry about the impact of a carb crash, lethargy from not sleeping well, or fatigue from having to sit in one...
Read MoreLittle check-in
I’ve been having website issues, and am studying for my state license exams, but there is news to report. I lost 8.4 pounds last week. Before you get too excited, this is what always happens to me the first week that I commit to cut out the crap, make my own lunch and dinner, and keep reasonable sleep schedule. The good news is that this is progress in the right direction. I’m hopeful (and currently feel) that I will be able to maintain some sort of healthier pace for a while. I’m not looking for perfection, just improvements. Bringing bag lunch and not getting takeout for...
Read MoreBullets it is
I’m remembering how much forethought, planning, and preparation goes into eating healthy. It really does take a lot of time to make sure you’ve got good food at home, that you pack your lunch for tomorrow, and that you are constantly aware of what is in the refrigerator and what can be cooked and eaten at any given moment. It takes a lot of work. And a LOT of dishes. Here is a snippet of the email from my WW leader: “Oh wow – how weird is this!! I tried to find you in the computer the other day cause I was thinking about you strongly. We must have been connected in...
Read MoreBattles, not wars
(Warning: food p0rn ahead.) A list of things I thought about eating last night, but didn’t: 3 Burritos from the local taco stand A chocolate milkshake from In-n-Out A loaf of banana bread from the diner across the street. Chocolate ice cream concoction from Cold Stone Creamery. (I actually only buy this because I love the chocolate-dipped waffle bowl. I am sick.) Instead, I studied for my licensure exam and had a bowl of berries with milk. I am considering this a victory.
Read MoreHanging in
More bullet points: Going home triggers my binges. This is a simple, somewhat-obvious thing to say, but it bears saying. One of the traditions at my house is to not talk about things — not even big, serious, or scary things — and I think I have used food over the years to “swallow” my words down. I may not go home for Christmas. Still deciding on that one. Sugar/refined carbs make me feel better for about an hour, then quickly sap me of energy. I have a high-stress life and I need my energy. I owe it to my patients to be the best therapist that I can. I am hoping to...
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