Capable
Because there don’t seem to be any other bloggers stupid crazy enough to try following Dr. Huizenga’s inanely-named Wow!Rx plan, I knew from the beginning that I wanted to blog about the experience and blaze a trail for other idiots brave souls to follow.
But, I didn’t want to publicize it much until I was pretty sure I could sustain the pace. Frankly, as I read the book and contemplated the life changes I’d have to make in order to exercise for 2-2.5 hours per day, I became increasingly convinced of one thing: I’d never be able to pull it off.
Through November and December 2009, I carried around an intense fear of failure. And, I mean, failure is one thing. With your run-of-the-mill failure, you can at least say, “Well, I tried.” More than that — I was reasonably convinced that I would never make it out of the starting gate of this plan. I worried about telling anyone about my new experiment, because I was pretty sure that my mind and body were incapable of pushing that hard.
In fact, for long stretches of time, the only thing that kept me going on this idea was the inspiration of The Biggest Loser. Thanks to the miracle of television, I have burned the images into my mind: people my size sweating it out, week after week, on national television. If they could do it, why can’t I?
Worse — if all of those people sent home from “the ranch” could manufacture their tremendous successes by following the at-home plan, then why couldn’t I?

photo credit: tiarescott
After all, like millions of annual applicants, I was willing to consider giving up 12-15 weeks of my life — losing my job, subleasing my apartment, boarding my dogs, and giving up contact with friends and family — to lose weight. What was keeping me from dedicating tremendous time and energy to this pursuit in a somewhat-less-dramatic (and certainly less-incentivized) fashion?
Here it is. As of tonight, I will have officially been following Dr. Huizenga’s nut-busting regimen for exactly one month. I can at least say this: I am capable of it.

photo credit: Maʝicdölphin
And I have a lot of tips and suggestions if you’re considering doing it, too.
I’ve been keeping notes all this time and writing about my experience. Now that my fear and trepidation is mostly past, that I have proven to myself that I am capable, I’m ready to start sharing more about how this journey has gone.
I’ll start by talking about the “stages of change model“ and how I moved from Precontemplation to Contemplation, Preparation, and Action. And, if any of you decide to embark on this project, will you please let me know?
I like to think I’m not the only insane one.



January 25th, 2010 at 6:27 pm
Holy. Crap. I can’t believe you’ve managed to stick with this program for a whole month!! I am seriously impressed and (at the risk of sounding condescending, which I swear I don’t mean to) proud of you. WAY TO GO! What kind of results have you seen from your efforts?!
January 26th, 2010 at 6:11 am
A month on the program is awesome! I look forward to hearing more about how it has been.
January 27th, 2010 at 4:11 am
does someone pop out of the book to stand on you and yell?
January 28th, 2010 at 1:25 pm
Ha! No, only Jillian’s books can really shame you.
January 31st, 2010 at 12:00 pm
Congratulations on facing down what sounds like a particularly nasty fear!
p.s. I watched The Biggest Loser last week. I found it helpful. (Because it’s on right after my Weight Watcher weigh in, i.e. the one time of the week that I’m most tempted to overeat, since I half-starve myself on weigh in day. It’s /really/ hard to overeat while watching TBL.)
February 1st, 2010 at 3:47 pm
I hear ya. Though, I can’t count the number of times I watched an episode with a bowl of ice cream…
February 1st, 2010 at 3:47 pm
Thanks, Christina. Go you, too!
February 1st, 2010 at 3:53 pm
Not condescending at all. I’m grateful for the encouragement!