Chronicles of a Late Bloomer

• I’m remembering how much forethought, planning, and preparation goes into eating healthy. It really does take a lot of time to make sure you’ve got good food at home, that you pack your lunch for tomorrow, and that you are constantly aware of what is in the refrigerator and what can be cooked and eaten at any given moment. It takes a lot of work. And a LOT of dishes.
• Here is a snippet of the email from my WW leader: “Oh wow – how weird is this!! I tried to find you in the computer the other day cause I was thinking about you strongly. We must have been connected in minds. And of course I remember you. I can picture you as I write this sittiing to my right writing notes. I wasn’t there this weekend but I will be there Saturday. Do come back. Lots of love.” You know, I really shopped around for a good WW leader and I feel so lucky to have found her.
• Yesterday on the subway, I saw a man and a woman who were larger than I am — painfully large. The woman’s stomach rested on her lap and reached almost to her knees. They looked so uncomfortable. They didn’t interact with each other. At first, I felt sorry for them. I felt I could relate to them. Somewhere in the middle of their train ride, one of them pulled out a tube of Pringles and started eating it. Then I had a mixed reaction — first an annoyance, because food is not allowed on the subway. I thought, “Surely you can wait until you get off the train…?” Then I felt badly for them — I felt that people were watching them and judging them already, and they made it worse by eating junk food in front of everyone. It reminded me that I am a secretive eater. I am hyper-aware of what others think about me when I eat. I wanted to yell at them — to save them from what I figured were the thoughts of those around them. Maybe they were only my thoughts that were unkind? It was a very complicated train ride for me.

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