Hanging in
More bullet points:
- Going home triggers my binges. This is a simple, somewhat-obvious thing to say, but it bears saying. One of the traditions at my house is to not talk about things — not even big, serious, or scary things — and I think I have used food over the years to “swallow” my words down.
- I may not go home for Christmas. Still deciding on that one.
- Sugar/refined carbs make me feel better for about an hour, then quickly sap me of energy. I have a high-stress life and I need my energy. I owe it to my patients to be the best therapist that I can. I am hoping to make better choices ahead of time in order to maintain my energy throughout the day.
- My WW leader emailed me back this morning and was so enthusiastic and so caring that it almost brought tears to my eyes.
- I went to dinner with a friend last night. He wanted to know how my trip home had been, and I told him. It stressed me out so much that I went and got chocolate ice cream on the way home. I’m really getting tired of using sweets as a mechanism for feeling better. I hope I can stop doing that.
The end, for today.
July 8th, 2009 at 12:09 pm
Glad to see you back. I’ve missed your thoughtful posts.
July 8th, 2009 at 1:17 pm
I like the bullet points! I’m sure the pressure of writing your beautiful thoughtful pieces is exhausting. This is a great too! And, once again, it is as if you are noting “MY” list. Sigh.
July 8th, 2009 at 4:25 pm
I noticed you mentioned your mom’s secret stash of fabric and art supplies – been there – done that – it is EYE CANDY and over buying/hoarding that stuff is the same as over eating. . .
July 9th, 2009 at 3:43 am
Visiting parents and family can be enormously stressful because old buttons get pushed just by being there. I generally gain when I go back, which is one reason I’ve changed to doing Christmas only every other year; I’ll visit, but not at the holidays, and on a time frame that I choose. If that’s too much, not visiting is a good, if difficult, decision. Hang in there!