Naked Saturday: 326.4 (-28.2)
Celebrating: 25 pounds gone (still)
Grateful for: losing a little weight, even though the dreaded PMS has yet to deliver on its promises.
Starting weight: 354.6 pounds
Last week: 329.2
This week: 326.4
Change this week: -2.8
Total change: -28.2
Next milestone: 30 pounds gone
This week’s mantra: Migraines cannot stop me.
June 18th, 2008 at 3:58 am
“Migraines cannot stop me.”
Boy, do I hear you on this one.
Mine also included asthma and GI trouble and female trouble.
I didn’t really understand how much those things impacted me – until I got them under control. After they were mostly gone (one by one) – and then the isolated instances when they reoccurred – I saw years and years of patterns.
What those reoccurrences showed me – was the pattern of not feeling good and then sort of stuffing ANYTHING in hopes of feeling better.
My migraines start with an achy feeling in my right shoulder where it connects to my neck. Like an uncomfortable bra strap feeling – no matter what bra and no matter that those bras are usually fine. And my gut reaction – is always – maybe I haven’t eaten enough/the right thing. Always.
Getting myself (now) to STOP and immediately take my meds – before the headache even presents itself as an actual headache – is hard.
My asthma is the same sort of thing. Onset isn’t not being able to breathe. Onset is more of a panic mode. Reaction to panic is also eating. Again – getting myself to recognize what is actually happening – and take meds and remove myself from whatever is in the air that is setting me off – is hard and is also “key”.
The GI thing – is pure – “if I stuff enough in the top, perhaps something will come out the bottom and I will feel better.” Easier to recognize – but still a very powerful feeling.
And if one is (heavy) bleeding half of their life away – exercise is very difficult, life is difficult. That was a cycle to beat all cycles – in every possible connotation of the word.
Getting these things under control (which for me was hard to do), keeping these things under control, and recognizing them EARLY has been and continues to be a real struggle.
I honestly believe that without these illness/diseases/conditions (or whatever one might like to call them) I would not have had NEARLY as much difficulty with food/over eating as I did.
I realize that people deal with much harder issues. I realize that I don’t DEAL very well. But all of these things just sucked (for me) – you can tell I live with teenagers – am growing quite fond of that word.
I am very much a food addict and struggle with a “food chain reaction” – fried food has this chain reaction, some types of sweets, definitely processed carbs. And I would cycle through the panic/pain setting me off and then the food keeping the chain reaction going. One very nasty pattern.
This part of my journey has been very much a baby steps kind of thing – way too much to think about dealing with it all at the same time. It has been more like an issue a year. And it takes me about a year to get through one issue – take a break and then move on to the next. For me – one foot in front of the other – very tiny steps – but moving forward.
I hear what the word “migraine” means.
June 18th, 2008 at 4:28 am
And congrats on the loss – 2.8 is a lot!
June 18th, 2008 at 6:02 am
Congrats on the loss!
I can not agree more with what Vickie says above, and I haven’t had to deal with PCOS, like you have (just one bad ovary, and my problems got better after it was gone).
You’re doing fantastic!
June 18th, 2008 at 10:51 am
great job on the weight loss!!
June 19th, 2008 at 4:34 am
Wow. You’re doing great! 30lbs gone is just around the corner. Bravo, you!
j