I’m on the couch, crying. It’s a weeknight so we’re relegated to the phone and he hates it when I cry.
“How could I have responded better to this?” he asks. He’s sincere, but there is a hint of frustration. “What did you want me to say?”
I think for a long time before answering. “I guess [...]
At his request, I’ll be bringing my boyfriend home to meet my family this Christmas. I was surprised when he brought it up; on TV, the boyfriends always dread meeting the family and do so grudgingly. Also, on TV, there is a canned laughter track when the boyfriend disagrees with pop on politics and mom [...]
I get into QZ’s car so that we can go to the Felt Club show downtown. “I have a goal,” I announce.
She looks a little doubtful, and who can blame her? I sheepishly cough up some caveats. “Well, I mean, it might not be my goal tomorrow, but it is my goal today.”
“Proceed,” she encourages, [...]
Either the scale was wrong last week or I have lost over 13 pounds in the past 5 days. True, I have been eating better than before (though not perfectly) and have tried to get more sleep, walk the dogs more frequently, and take better care of myself in general.
But maybe it’s just indicative [...]
A major change in direction, a sudden surge of goodwill toward the world and all mankind, a return of interest in my own thoughts, and I sit up, wide awake, at 3:15 a.m.
I let the puppy out to potty so she can sleep longer and then pull a stack of pages into bed. I have [...]
It’s not the solution to all of my problems. Not by a long shot. But, I finally heard from Potential New Job yesterday, and not a moment too soon. I was offered the position and, although it’s not a million-dollar salary, it is adequate. I am going to take it.
All jobs are stressful. I’m not [...]
It has finally happened.
I knew the news wouldn’t be good, but (I figured) it’s better to know the Truth and proceed from there, no? No. The Truth is that when I stepped onto my scale — something which I had not deigned to do since August — it did not give me a number that [...]