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The Track

Boyfriend-Semi-Ex-Semi-Boyfriend asked this morning, when we woke up to the following email from WeightWatchers.com, “Did they implant that chip in your head when you paid the membership fee?”

The email was titled, Simple Ways to Get Back on Track. It felt like irony, after last night’s little meltdown — admissions of self-loathing, pokes and pinches of my belly and thighs, and my own not-so-little pity party. Simple ways to get back on track? Meet my middle finger.

I never want to have to think about The Track again. I hate The Track. Good Lord Almighty I hate this idea that you are always either on or off The Track. It’s so self-punishing. Maybe I don’t hate The Track. Maybe I just hate myself.

This entry was posted Monday, September 10th, 2007 at 10:10 pm and is filed under Metaphysical. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.

8 Responses to “The Track”

  1. Ali Says:
    September 11th, 2007 at 12:54 am

    I’d be inclined to go with hating the track. You’re right, there shouldn’t be a track to be on or off.

    Me? I just hated the smug weigh in ladies. Most of them were fat, but I always felt like they took great delight in any gain they got to record.

    Glad to see you’re alive and kicking.

  2. Têtue Says:
    September 11th, 2007 at 7:56 am

    I hate the track, too. Middle finger, indeed!

  3. PastaQueen Says:
    September 11th, 2007 at 8:25 am

    I think it’s more like you’re always on track, but you get run over if you stop moving.

  4. BethK Says:
    September 13th, 2007 at 11:22 am

    I’m always in gravest danger when “The Track” turns into “The Rut”. That kind of thinking does wreck some havoc with my already abundant all-or-nothing mentality. I’m with you on the middle finger.

  5. Hilly Says:
    September 16th, 2007 at 2:07 pm

    I think it’s “the track”…we always beat ourselves up about it. I think we should be able to veer off of it now and then and not feel like crap :).

  6. Lori W. Says:
    September 18th, 2007 at 6:46 am

    Maybe the problem is that we all see the track as literally a track in a field going around in circles. Maybe the reality is that the track is a long trail that meanders quite a bit and even has picnic tables with food on it on the wayside. Sometimes the view is pretty and other times, I’ve found myself standing on a cliff. But it’s harder when you have the big self-loathing thing going on (and I fight that ALL THE TIME myself). Just remember that people love you, care about you, think you’re smart and clever and pretty.

  7. the veggie paparazzo Says:
    September 18th, 2007 at 6:47 am

    Glad to see you’re back! (Not back on track, just back. ;))

  8. the veggie paparazzo Says:
    October 4th, 2007 at 10:45 am

    How are you doing these days?

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