May is a new day
May 1st, 2007 at 8:33 am (Metaphysical, Physical)
Inhale, close your eyes, exhale, stretch… April is over and May is a New Day.
Sure, the world came crashing down around me in April, but I also allowed myself to make a few critical errors. Here they are, for your voyeuristic enjoyment. (It’s like watching a wreck, isn’t it? You just can’t look away, and the bulleted lists just keep coming.)
- I asked too many people for advice. As much as I love to get other people’s perspectives on things and challenge my own, the tension of conflicting advice added more sense of uncertainty and desperation to a month packed with Unknowns.
- I lived too much in the future. For me, one sign of psychic trouble is that I start making big plans for the future, and getting caught up in the minutia of these imaginary plans. If I catch myself looking at apartment listings for another city, then I know I’m in trouble.
- I ignored my basic physical needs. I didn’t sleep enough, exercise, go on walks with the dog, or consider the nutritional quality of my intake at all (just the bulk and quantity of it). As a result, my energy dwindled, I became mildly depressed, and generally felt like garbage day in and day out. At a time when I could have used clarity of mind and a surplus of energy, I acted as though my brain resided in a disembodied head. Not helpful.
- I did not self-care. In spite of constantly lecturing my clients about self-care, I utilized none of my self-care secrets this month. I didn’t journal, paint, garden, walk the dog, or do anything besides call and talk with friends and loved ones (see above re: too much conflicting advice). I know better than that.
The good news is that MAY IS A NEW DAY. Just for today, I’m going to try to correct my mistakes. I will take things one step at a time. I will eat a veggie omelette for breakfast.
* * * UPDATED * * *
Behold, success! Veggie omelette smothered in green sauce with a side of strawberries. I’m a little late for work, but screw it. I needed the omelette for my morale alone. Hello, May. Welcome to my home, won’t you take a seat?
PastaQueen said,
May 1, 2007 at 9:23 am
When I saw you weren’t updating the blog I figured things probably weren’t going well. Glad to see you’re back and not giving up! I’ve had a slight upswing in my weight lately and it’s just made me want to beat back that fat even harder. Back, back, fat!
jodi said,
May 1, 2007 at 10:50 am
i think april was a hard month for a lot of people but i’m glad to see you’re back to blogging and back to getting things in order… i just had to comment because i LOVE salsa verde on my eggs, i think its the greatest stuff ever! i also put it on my quesadilas… mmm mmm good… :o)
metamorphose said,
May 1, 2007 at 10:19 pm
Yay for May.
Amy said,
May 2, 2007 at 9:49 am
yay for one step at a time!
Annie said,
May 2, 2007 at 11:06 am
Yay for April being over with…wasn’t great for me either. Wishing you much success in May. The omelet looks great, bet it was quiet tasty.
Jen said,
May 8, 2007 at 1:48 pm
I like your list — it shows that you really are thinking about what works for you. I understand what you mean about conflicting advice. I think that just about any plan works if you choose one and do it. Trying to juggle all the different “conventional wisdoms” out there will make you crazy. I used to have a coworker (who was much heavier than me, by the way) who constantly hounded me that I should cut back on my carbs. I was doing Weight Watchers at the time, which is not a low-carb program. It bugged me a lot.
Hope you enjoyed that gorgeous breakfast.