Check-in: 320.5 (-15.3)
Starting weight: 335.8 This week’s average: 320.5 Change this month: +8.8 Overall change: -15.3 Next milestone: 20 pounds gone (again) Here’s how the damage ended up. I can’t really write anything more than this today, except to acknowledge this: One of my daily weigh-ins at the end of March was 309. This weekend, I maxed out at 322. The “average weight” game is supposed to ease the blow of that kind of fluctuation somewhat (and, as you can see, it does — to the tune of 4-5 pounds, in this case) but still. These are realities and it is time for me to face...
Read MoreCease and desist
I have continued to track my daily weight and average it for the past month, in spite of wishing that April would just die a horrible death and be done with it. I am an emotional eater, and I do pretty well when my stress level rides between 60% and 80%, but I have not yet built up alternative coping mechanisms for when my stress skyrockets past that point. This month: I have faced the possibility of breaking up. I have traveled to my parents’ house for a visit. I have gotten behind on work to a degree proportional to the visit home. I have attended more than a dozen job interviews. I...
Read MoreThe cruelest month
Despite what they say, you can go home again. And again, and again, and again… in all the good ways and the bad. I’ve been struggling through the month of April. Warning signs have included: bingeing, isolating, complaining about constant overwhelm, obsessively planning for the future (instead of living in the moment), anxiety attacks, falling behind on obligations, a general sense of fatigue or malaise, money woes, a world overtaken by clutter, and — did I mention? — BINGEING. I had a great time at home with my family. I thoroughly enjoyed my night out with the...
Read MoreAre you jealous?
Tomorrow, I ditch all of this stress and frustration for a pseudo Spring Break in the mountains. It’ll be nice to see my family, celebrate my brother’s graduation, and work in half-a-day of lounging. On top of everything, though (and, this is where you should be truly jealous), it looks like I’ll get to meet Rachel and Meta for dinner and debauchery! I’m a lucky girl. Before I go, I have to go for more lab/blood work due to certain suspicious elevated something-something levels that showed up last time. I’m trying not to freak out too much about the fact that...
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