The Top 3
January 16th, 2007 at 8:49 pm (Metaphysical)
I’m all for visualization and affirmations. I do live in L.A., after all. But part of the difficulty of losing weight is that I’ve never been thin. I have no point of reference or distant memory with which to feed my fantasies. I can’t remember, in fact, weighing less than 300 pounds in my entire adult life. Losing weight will not be a return to some “glory days” of the past. It will be an entirely new experience, and new is always nerve-wracking.
Like it or not, my overweight has always been in the top 3 descriptors that I would use to describe myself:
- Smart
- Fat
- Funny
When I first typed that, I had Fat at number 3, but I went back and edited it to be more honest with myself.1 What will move up to take spot number 2 when I approach my goal? What will fill the void left at number 3 if Funny is promoted? Rich? Famous? Insipid? Insidious?
Perhaps it doesn’t matter since that date is, realistically, at least 3 years in the future. I’m sure in those 36 months, something will step up to take Fat’s place as my identifying characteristic. I hope it’s something like Doctor or Artist and not the more likely Obsessive, Egotistical, or Paranoid.
- In fact, it might be most honest to have Fat at spot number 1, but I just can’t bring myself to do that, yet. [↩]
